An Apology

A thousand apologies to you, I owe

who’s heart I broke and broke and broke!

All I meant to say was- Sorry,

but I gave explanations when we last spoke.

I still hear your voice in my head

when I think of what you might say.

You have always been my guiding star,

quite like Eklavya and his Dronacharya.

I know how deeply I’ve hurt you

and let you down…

That I have caused you pain,

is my grief, profound.

Please, please won’t you forgive me.

I’m so sorry, your pain is mine to bear.

I’ve been so consumed with guilt,

I cannot think of you without sadness and tears.

If only I could go back in time

and make all the wrongs, right.

My heart, that is burdened so

would feel somewhat light.

I must be the only person in the world

who doesn’t know how to apologise,

but I will try and try again

I’m not giving up, question does not arise.

Give me a chance to make amends,

this is my one and only plea.

Losing you has been the most difficult to bear,

do you think you could ever forgive me?

I know I have to work hard to earn your trust,

what we had was so divine.

I could never, never let you go,

with all my love and gratitude for your time.

Yamini

Snowfall

Puffs of clouds come snowing down,

it weaves a blanket so cold…

It sends a ripple of excitement,

this is a sight to behold!

Time freezes over, I stand mesmerised,

enraptured by its beauty…

Don’t call me inside to do my chores,

I’m on a break, I’m off-duty!

I’ve been magically trapped

in my grandma’s snow globe…

but I’m thoroughly enjoying this,

I’m no chiono-phobe!

I catch some on the palm of my hand,

so light to touch, like cotton candy…

I think to myself, it’s about time

I poured me some of that golden brandy.

O’ what fun it is, to walk

on a carpet of pristine white snow.

I just can’t resist making a few balls,

watching them hit as I throw.

I’m slowly freezing all over,

but there’s a warm glow inside.

I’ve had my fill but I’m greedy for more,

I can’t let this feeling slide.

The brain takes over,

‘I’ve had my fun in the snow’.

But the heart protests,

‘Stay a bit longer, don’t go.’

Covid Be Done Now

I've shopped and stocked

I’ve done all the cooking I longed.

I’ve binged-watched

I’ve even spring-cleaned!

I’ve taken long naps and rested so much

I’ve lost count of my days...

I’m so sick of being at home- aah

I miss the interaction, eeh!

I’ve tended my garden

I’ve planted all the bulbs;

This is my Eden

But not going out sucks!

I’ve wasted my passes and my classes

I’ve even cut my own hair!

A wave of inertia possesses me

I want to do something but I don’t care.

Hubby’s locked himself up in the guest room

And I don’t even have a snuggle bear.

I’ve downloaded the new app- zoom

Now that’s the only space we share.

Covid be done now

You’ve done enough ruin!

You’ve made countries bow;

and I’ve even written this fuck’n poem.

R.I.P.

31/03/2020

A thousand frogs!

A thousand frogs must I kiss
to find my gorgeous prince...
or must I await my sweetheart
to awaken me with a lingering kiss?

Should I let my hair down
and let him climb into my heart...
O' must I be trapped in this beastly life
and await the coming of my true love?

Love, love and more love...
will there be anything more that I'll ever need?
A thousand frogs must I kiss
to find my charming prince?

18/11/14

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